My email has been a constant flow of ‘what in the world is going on with you!’ emails from fans. I appreciate so many showing their concern. There of course are also some not so nice comments about my recent performances. Well I just want to set the record straight...for my fans. The plan was to train but not compete this year, but nothing ever goes exactly as planned. I just needed a break. I somehow became so consumed with things surrounding my running that I lost the motivation to compete.
Training wise Amy and I wanted to try some different things and clean up my form. You can’t really experiment with training in a Championship year. Based on the way I performed in the 5 races I ran, it might appear to some that I haven't done much training at all but that is not the case. In fact our alternative training plan was returning amazing results. Then in May almost simultaneously I rolled my ankle and it was determined that running this year was non negotiable. I was unable to train for 3 weeks and of course time was now of the essence. This is when the business side of track sucks the life out the actual running. So I went, ran and did horribly if I do say myself. It was painful for me because I am still a competitor and it makes you feel like such a sellout to keep stepping on the track knowing that you are not at your best. I am sorry to those who were disappointed by either my absence from regular competition or the result of the competitions I did compete in and I thank you for remaining in my corner even without stellar performances.
Without a competition schedule I had time to explore life after track and also to do some family and leisure activities that usually take place during the time I am in season and wouldn’t be able to participate in. I didn’t get to do everything I wanted but I did get to do a lot and for that I am grateful. If you have been following my blog you will know some of the things but here is a short list of ‘stuff’ this year has allowed me to do. Swimming, spinning, skiing, shooting, flag football, Thanksgiving with my grandfather, Trinidad with my grandmother, Super bowl activities, my grandmother’s 80th birthday party and The ultimate training camp for christian athletes in Denver.
I will start a Job at University of Miami in the Athletic Department August 30th. I have been looking forward to getting some work experience under my belt to prepare me for life after track and I am so fortunate that this will work perfectly with my training.
I knew I wasn't ready to walk away from track but I did need to do some soul searching to redefine what exactly I want from the sport and what I want to contribute to it. The sport is going thru a lot of changes and a lot are not beneficial to the athlete. This time away has reminded me that I am an athlete first and I can’t let myself be consumed with trying to make things be different. Change will come when the athletes band together and demand it. My personal platform to change things is bigger when I am running well. I want to run a Personal Best it is long over due for me and I know I have a lot more in the tank than what you all have seen. Run first and let all the other stuff take care of itself. I am in the business of racing. No one compensates me for trying to figure out why the agents take 15% of our money, why our earning potential seems to be so limited, why contract are so one sided, how to form a union to represent the athletes or anything else along those lines.
I am looking forward to a new Lauryn Williams stepping on the track next year more similar to the 2002-2005 Lauryn then then recent one. My website is being updated and I have some new programs in the works so please check back often.