Hey y'all! I just wanted to fill you in on Shy-Knee-Qua and what I've been up to for the last week! I went to the doc yesterday for my 2 week appointment. I had a great visit. I finally got my crusty staples out...lol! I'm so glad because those things have been itching like crazy. My first question to Doc was what am I supposed to do about this scar?! He recommended 2 ointments to put on my scar: Mederma and Scar-guard. Needless to say, the pharmacy was my first stop leaving the doc. Goodness, that ointment was $30 apiece! It better work for that kind of money! It's a small price compared to my absolute horror of showing this scar to anyone...yuck! And, it's the summer...boo! I guess I have to get used to the idea of having it with me forever. :-) Oh! Finally, I can get my whole leg wet in the shower! My leg hasn't been completely cleaned in 2 weeks...ha! We call it my "Stanky Leg" Lmbo!
I walked into the appointment with one crutch, with the intent of leaving it behind. Doc said my knee looked great and I was healing very nicely. He said that if I felt comfortable walking around without my crutches, then go for it. He said if I'm around a lot of people, take my crutch just so I'll have some space. People tend to move away from people with crutches. No problem, Doc! I can do that! Not needing my crutches, being able to move around a little more, and getting my leg wet has really encouraged me. I feel like I'm progressing. One day at time, I conquer something new. It may be as small as sleeping on my side instead of my back. Whatever it is, I'm definitely motivated! I'm so thankful, I'm crutch-free!
After my appointment with Dr. Klootwyk, I had physical therapy. I was ready for PT. Mark, my physical therapist, was very pleased with my knee and progress thus far. We did some exercises that involved firing my quad. (tightening my quad muscle) The part that I don't really look forward to is when we bend my knee. Our goal was bending it to about 45 degrees. It was painful but we made it. I know this isn't going to be easy. This cliche is so perfect: no pain, no gain. One of my exercises managed to pinch a tear out. Mark said we had one more to go and he pushed me hard. I want to be pushed. I told him to do one more after that one. Don't worry about these tears I'll be fine. These tears aren't emotional, these exercises are just painful. I'm tough though, whatever it takes. I think once I'm able to bend my knee on my own and naturally, it'll be smooth sailing. I'm not sure if I told you, but when doc repaired my knee, he had to put a cable in my knee to sustain the tendon and make sure it heals correctly. In 6 weeks, I'll will have that cable removed. Doc said it won't set me back at all. When the cable is removed, I'll be able to dive all the way into rehab and getting back on the court. With the cable in my knee, I can only bend it to about 90 degrees. It will probably take about 2 weeks to get it to 90. I'm not there yet, in due time.
Omg! I am the last person on this earth that should be bed ridden. I have been so bored out of my mind it's not even funny. You can only watch so much tv in a day! I can't sit still without this injury. One thing I can say is my doggie Prince has been right by my side. I love that lil guy! Ok, I'm digressing. Today was huuuuge for me because I went to the gym to lift!! I did a light upper body lift. I wanted to do some abs but I stood there for like 5 minutes trying to figure out how I would maneuver myself to lay down on the mat without having something to hold on to. Then I wondered how I would get up if I did manage to make it down there...lol! So I decided to do them when I got home. Um...yeah...about those abs...
I was in the gym today! Man I miss the beans out of the gym! There is no way I can go to a gym and not touch a ball, no matter how much I try to fight it. I guess I'm just a gym rat. I got a few shots up and that was like heaven. I was trying to figure out what I can start working on right away and it's looking like form shooting, free throws, and stationary ball handling. I'm excited, I just want to move around and exercise. I just want this quest back to the court to be as smooth as possible. I know now more than ever that I will play basketball until the wheels fall off, whether it's professionally or recreationally. I love playing ball, that's for sure. There's nothing like sitting out when you're injured. It's horrible. My prayer is that I play again. My prayer is the God's will will be done. Honestly, I'm praying that it is in His plan. I'm thanking Him in advance either way. If He would take something away from me that means so much, surely He would bless me with something greater. I was always taught and believed in thanking and praising God in triumph and in trials. I know that my blessing is coming and my very injury might be a blessing in disguise. I don't know how it will manifest itself, but I know soon He will reveal His plan. That's exciting! I'm eager to know what's next? I'm thankful. I'm hopeful.
I do think about the moment I am cleared from my doc to play. I think my biggest hurdle will be getting over the fear of getting hurt again. I think this subject by itself will have its own blog post when that time comes. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it...
Congrats to the Chicago Sky for winning their pre-season opener against Minnesota. I miss everything. I miss that "team" environment. I miss the grind, practice, traveling, teammates, everything. I miss my livelihood. I handled today pretty well though, in my opinion. That feeling of envy that I had last week at the start of training camp has subsided for now. I wouldn't be surprised if it showed up again when I get to watch a game in person, or when I go to up to Chicago to visit, or when the season officially starts. It's all love though. There's not a negative bone in my body. I just miss ball. Go Sky!
Chicago will release me soon. That sucks by itself. I totally understand though. This is a business. I can't contribute this season. The roster spots are down to 11. The season is so long and strenuous, players are going to get hurt (unfortunately). As a general manager, there's no question. I appreciate the Sky staff for keeping on the roster this long. It may not seem like a big deal but as I said, this is a business. So often, teams dispose of players like yesterday's garbage, respectfully. I'm blessed that I played for an organization that cared about me totally, as a person and not just an employee. That meant so much to me. The Sky staff has reached out to me a number of times and they have made me feel like I was still a part of the team. I would hate to imagine how I would have felt if they treated me differently. I'm very thankful and blessed for that because I'm a relationship type of person. I'm a people person and I love building great relationships. As the team traveled to Minnesota, Tamera Young sent me a message telling me that she saved my seat on the bus. I almost cried! Lol! I'm such a punk! Thanks, Tammy, that meant more than you know...