God continues to order my steps and I am amazed at His grace. With all due respect to each of the 3 organizations I’ve had the privilege of playing for; I’ve been waiting for this opportunity for 6 years. Full of blissful emotion, look in the dictionary and find any word that has any kind of relevance to pure happiness and that would best describe me! I’m thankful first and foremost for God affording me another opportunity to play on this platform. PRAISE HIM!
It has been a very challenging 10 months but I wouldn’t change a minute. I would be here for a while detailing all the ups and downs and perspective-altering moments throughout my journey. The hard work, dedication, and determination only intensifies now. I’m nowhere near where I want to be or where I know I belong. This fire in my gut is being fueled by my own sense of underachievement, my recovery from a devastating injury, my hunger, and my dreams coming to fruition. It’s hard to verbalize the way I feel right now. Shoot! I was a babbling mess in my thank you prayer to Him when I got the news. It’s cool though, He knows my heart! God has been so amazing to me that in a sense, I feel unworthy of His grace. But, I know I’m worthy because I was made in His image. I also know that feeling otherwise can block my blessings. I’m totally grateful for a second chance at displaying my God-given talents while glorifying His name.
To my surprise, there are some people that didn’t think that I would recover from my injury. In my mind there was never an option not to come back and try this again, Lord-willing of course. I was definitely humbled by my injury. I think while athletes are aware of the possibility of being hurt, you never think it will happen to you. I know I’ve mentioned this before in my blogs, but God definitely has way of grabbing your attention. Honestly, I don’t know if I would be playing today if I hadn’t gone down. I think if I hadn’t gotten hurt, I probably wouldn’t be in the mental space that I am today. Before my injury, ball had become a grind and a job. After having no choice but to sit and watch, I appreciate my livelihood in ways that I overlooked and took for granted before. Of course there are pros and cons to everything but my injury magnified those pros. I’m thankful for that. You never know when you're going to go down, so you have to play each day like it’s your last game.
I’m grateful for the Fever giving me this opportunity. I know that nothing can be taken for granted. I still have to prove to the coaching staff that I belong on that roster. So this isn’t a time to relax, in fact, my work load has increased. I’m staring this challenge right in the eyes. I’m ready to work, I’m ready to improve, I’m ready to finish what I started. I am inhaling this moment. I am 100% alive right now. I am allowing nothing but love, positivity, hope, and optimism to surround me.
I’m happy to be home!