It is difficult for me to type as tears stream down my face onto my keyboard, but I will attempt to finish this article, for you, the reader. By now, my fellow Americans, you must have seen this story. Sadness does not begin to describe what I feel in my heart right now. The only thing that is getting me through these tough times is an interview that Big Brown's trainer Rick Dutrow allowed me to do with "America's Horse," after this announcement was made. Reading it over and over again is the only thing that keeps me sane at this point.