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ST. LOUIS Greg Holland sat with a folded newspaper in his hand, filling out the day's sudoku with a ballpoint pen. He set both down on a clubhouse table as he explained the more complicated mind game he's been playing lately.
"It's a fine line," Holland said Wednesday afternoon. "You can go for a week, and all of a sudden, you're like, 'Man, I need a day off.' But I would rather be out there throwing than not throwing, because I know if I'm throwing, then we are in some ballgames."
So goes the life of a Major League closer. You either pitch too often, or not enough. But when you're the closer on a team that's lost eight games in a row, and you've only had two save opportunities this month, and that month is now on its 29th day, it's the latter drastically.
"It's the nature of the beast," Holland said. "You kind of get used to it. You know what your body needs to do to stay sharp in those times when you're not throwing a lot."
Things haven't always been this way.
The first week of May saw Holland notch his seventh save of the season in a 9-8 win against the Tampa Bay Rays, claim his first win of the year in a 6-5 extra-innings contest against the Chicago White Sox and blow a save in a 2-1 extra-innings loss to that same Chicago team.
In less than seven days, Holland had stepped onto the mound with a one-run lead three times. Those are the situations closers are made for. Those are the situations Holland and his Royals have not had much of since.
Kansas City had lost 17 of its last 21 games entering Wednesday night's game against the Cardinals at Busch Stadium. Holland had appeared in just four of those games. None were a save opportunity.
"It's tough," Royals manager Ned Yost said in a dugout Wednesday afternoon "And it gets tougher on the road. He's being going four days, then he'll pitch. Then five days, then he'll pitch."
In order to stay active, Holland had thrown the ninth inning of the following four games: a 4-2 loss to the New York Yankees on May 12; a 9-5 win against the Los Angeles Angels on May 15; A 7-3 win against the Houston Astros on May 21; and a 7-0 loss to the Los Angeles Angels on May 25.
It was work, yes. But not the kind of work closers specialize in. As a result, Holland has logged extra practice sessions on the mound and done an increased amount of flat-land work as well. When he does come into games without a chance of it turning into a save, he does the same thing any closer in the situation does trick your brain into believing your arm is throwing for a save.
"You have to go out there and try to make your pitches, try to be aggressive like a save situation," Cardinals closer Edward Mujica said. "When you go out there in a no-save situation, it might be that your body doesn't have much energy. But you have to be the same in every situation."
Easier said than done.
"Those guys, they're a special breed that really excel in that situation," Yost said. "There's not much you can do to replicate save situations. We've just got to have a couple leads, and let him get back into regular work."
It looked like it was going to happen Wednesday. But then Cardinals right fielder Carlos Beltran smashed an Aaron Crow pitch 420 feet for a solo home run over the right field wall in the bottom of the eighth inning, and the Royals 3-1 lead was whittled to one. Then David Freese singled to score Allen Craig, and Daniel Descalso singled to score Yadier Molina and Freese.
The Cardinals won 5-3, handing the Royals their eighth loss in a row. Another much-needed save opportunity for Holland had gone up in smoke, like the post-victory fireworks that lit up the St. Louis sky.
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