Originally posted on Pro Sports Daily  |  Last updated 12/2/12
KANSAS CITY, Mo. -- For Chiefs linebacker Derrick Johnson, the nightmare came when he woke up Sunday morning and realized it had not been a bad dream, that one of his best friends, Jovan Belcher, was dead. "It was an emotional drive to the stadium," Johnson said. For Brady Quinn the realization of what had happened came when he walked into the Chiefs' locker room before the game against the Carolina Panthers and saw Belcher's uniform, pads, helmet and spikes sitting in his locker, waiting for him to come in and start getting dressed for the game. "I kind of lost it there for a couple moments," the Chiefs quarterback said. For Chiefs head coach Romeo Crennel, the realization of what had happened just 24 hours before was burned in his memory as he witnessed the moment when Belcher took his life with the same handgun that he'd used minutes before to shoot and kill his girlfriend. "You have to rely on each other, rely on your family and friends and rely on your faith -- that's what our team did today," said Crennel. "We were able to do that and work our way through the tragedy, knowing that it's not over today; it still goes on tomorrow, the next day and the next day. "Life is going to go on as well, and we have to work through it." Crennel said he was not going to talk about what he saw Saturday morning, just steps from the locker room the Chiefs use on a daily basis. Moments after he had killed his girlfriend Kassandra Perkins in the house they shared just east of the Truman Sports Complex, Belcher drove into the players' parking lot at the Chiefs offices and workout facility. Alerted by the police just moments before, Crennel, general manager Scott Pioli and defensive coordinator Gary Gibbs were in the parking lot to speak with him. A fourth-year linebacker from the University of Maine, he made the 2009 team and after one season, he rose to the level of starter and would have been on the field with the team's base defense against Carolina. After thanking his coaches and Pioli for the opportunity, he pulled the trigger and died there, just as police were showing up at the scene. From that moment on, Crennel has kept a lot of his thoughts to himself. He knew immediately he had a job to do on Saturday and then Sunday for the game and there wasn't going to be time for tears. "I'm pretty much even-keeled and I felt like I would be able to handle it," Crennel said of his emotions. "I knew I needed to be strong for the players in that locker room and they needed someone to lead them." And that's just what he did through meetings Saturday night at the team's hotel and then Sunday morning as the team got ready for facing the Panthers. It began when Crennel polled his captains about whether they wanted to play Sunday's game as scheduled. The NFL office had told the Chiefs they would go forward with whatever decision the team made. Crennel thought it important to play the game and his captains agreed. "We are football players and we are football coaches; that's what we do, we play and coach on Sunday," Crennel said. "That's why I wanted to play the game after talking to the captains. It takes our mind off our misery for a few hours. It helped us do that." The Saturday night meeting was another chance to help the team deal with the tragedy and the head coach's calm demeanor and soothing words had an effect on many of his young players that did not know what to do or how to handle their grief. "It was the leadership that Romeo showed and the coaching staff, Scott Pioli, what they showed us last night and before the game was what showed us how we needed to handle this situation," said tight end Tony Moeaki. "Having that example was reassuring." On Sunday at Arrowhead Stadium there were no outward signs that anything was different about this football game day. The players wore no memorial for Belcher on their helmets and uniforms, although several players had words and messages written on the tape on their wrists or shoes. In pre-game ceremonies, a moment of silence was held for all the victims of domestic violence. Once the game started, it provided the escape the players needed. "It's only a few hours, but it helped," said safety Eric Berry. "We've got a long time to mourn Jovan and the fact that he's now gone from our family. All we can do is try to help the ones left behind." Belcher and Perkins were the parents of a three-month old daughter Zoey, who was in the home when the shooting occurred. She was uninjured, but now faces the future without her mother and father. Quinn said the players would set up a fund for Zoey's future and ensure she's taken care of. "Maybe at some point in her life she's going to want to know what happened and try to find some peace with it," said Quinn. "We want to make sure she's taken care of in whatever manner is necessary." Johnson thinks it's also a time for the players to take another step forward in their development. "This situation shows we need to talk to each other more as men, not just as football players," Johnson said. "Generally men don't really show their feelings, we don't talk about what's going on and don't show emotion. To have an act like this go on and could have been avoided, we need to do more making sure our teammate is OK."
Ios_download En_app_rgb_wo_45

Mike Pettine discusses Johnny Manziel’s present, future

John Farrell: Ortiz's retirement announcement 'bittersweet'

Mark McGwire expected to be named Padres bench coach

Belichick on Peyton Manning benching: 'It's not our decision'

Report: Baylor's Jarrett Stidham out for regular season

Reporter believes Browns are 'ready to move on' from Manziel


Slow start not a problem for Utah Jazz

Marshawn Lynch to be out a month following hernia surgery

Report: MLB in serious talks about hosting games in London

Agent for Eagles player: Chip Kelly has lost the team

Report: Man dies after Mirror Lake jump at Ohio State

Patriots owner defends officials: ‘They’re not robots’

NFL News
Delivered to your inbox
You'll also receive Yardbarker's daily Top 10, featuring the best sports stories from around the web. Customize your newsletter to get articles on your favorite sports and teams. And the best part? It's free!

By clicking "Sign Me Up", you have read and agreed to the Fox Sports Digital Privacy Policy and Terms of Use. You can opt out at any time. For more information, please see our Privacy Policy.
Get it now!
Ios_download En_app_rgb_wo_45

Blue Jays fans create website in effort to keep David Price

The five most overrated teams in the Week 13 coaches' poll

10 storylines for Week 13 of the college football season

Ranking the 10 best games of 2015 college football rivalry week

Examining the Mavericks' hot start

Johnny Bench(ed): Manziel demoted to third string

Mike Trout, four years in

Tom Brady on ‘Rex Ryan!’ line call: It’s ‘in the playbook’

Five NFL teams trending downward

Not so fast, USC: Eagles Chip Kelly buys Philly-area home

Today's Best Stuff
For Publishers
Company Info
Follow Yardbarker