Steven Gerrard is determined to fire England to Brazil in 2014 and get a chance to eradicate some of his personal demons.
The Liverpool midfielder is desperate to make up for past failures at big tournaments and have one last shot at becoming a "hero in an England shirt".
The 32-year-old admits he has underperformed for his country in European Championships and World Cups and is keen to prove himself among the world's finest footballers.
And it is that fear of further failure which Gerrard says drives him on the pitch as he prepares for England's World Cup qualifying matches against San Marino and Montenegro.
"It's a must for me to qualify from a personal, selfish point of view. An absolute must," the England skipper told the Daily Mirror.
"On one level, it's about the chance to compete against the best sides and individuals on the planet. On another, it's about having that small chance of coming back as heroes in an England shirt, which I have never experienced. I have dreamt ...