New Year, Old Hope

The New Year.  A time to start fresh and look to a year of endless possibilities. It's a time we share with each other, knowing that we're all free to enjoy this time of new beginnings. We're excited, we're anxious, and we're all hopeful for what's to come. In a perfect world, every aspect of our lives would be filled with this optimism during this time. But for Bills fans, there's just one thing that even the New Year can't change. Weeks ago, I was still trying to wrap my head around what exactly happened to my team. Like many of you, I've accepted the fact that again, like the years before, it just wasn't our time. Maybe it's not the best justification for the team's failure, but it does help me sleep at night. But now, I've moved on to trying to wrap my head around why Dick Jauron is still going to be head coach and why there's absolutely no change to the Bills organization. In the spirit of the New Year, I like many of you fellow Bills fans, don't want change--we need it. And maybe indirectly, Wilson's decision, puts the change in our hands. See, change is really about making choices and sometimes in life, we're handed some tough ones to make. While making the choice to stay a fan really isn't that big of a deal when you consider what's going on in the world, it's different when it comes to the Bills. For many of us from Buffalo, the Bills are more than just our team. They're like our family. They've become such a huge part of us that the idea that they fail again does more than break our hearts. It breaks us. We're more than just angry this time because really, in the end, we're exhausted. I feel like I've been on the team for 25 years now, and I'm just tired. I'm tired of being the bunt of the jokes and I'm tired to trying to laugh off stupid plays and dumb coaching. And as much as it's hard for me to say, I'm tired enough to maybe just call it quits this time. While I'm sure there are some of you out there that will just call me a bad fan, I hope you will understand where I'm coming from just a little bit. And maybe once the acceptance of all this has come, I might be able to re-hang my Marshawn Lynch jersey after all. But for now, I'm looking forward to the other parts of my life for the New Year and maybe someday soon, I can start looking forward to seeing my Bills circle the wagons again.